Maybe Summer has finally come

Let me start with church, last one was written just afters Sarah’s leaving service, there was six inches of snow on the ground and yet maybe 200 people turned up to bid her farewell. Now I let the cat out of the bag, that was not her last service. Her actual last service was a week later and was Easter Communion. I was table elder 1, which means I was in Anglican speak master of ceremonies. That is I have to make sure we have everything we need and that everyone knows what they are doing and is happy doing it. Saturday set up was very quick indeed particularly as we were in, in the morning and the polishers were not in until the afternoon. That however did mean that we needed to be early to setup on the Sunday.  For some reason wine decided it was not going to behave. The open bottle of non-alcoholic was off, I then managed to pour an extra tray of it (had to be chucked) and finally the chalice got over filled, and a wine glass got dropped. I was just glad we were as low a tradition as we were. Having to wash the large linen table cloth in cold water and then dispose of water reverentially is beyond the lengths that I am ready to go to. There was of course the formal farewells to Sarah after communion with things being presented.  One incident to recall, St Andrews had decided to give Sarah a bread knife as a reminder of her time in Sheffield. However Sheila who was doing the presentation was not prepared to give it to Sarah unless Sarah gave her something in return so that the knife would not cut through the relationship. Only thing is that Sarah like most ministers in clerical gear did not have anything on her. so I ended up lending her 10p! I then had to send the 10p up to the collection as Sheila started wondering what to do with it!

The Sunday after was quieter, it was low Sunday and Sarah had left the previous week. There was still a good turnout and I was able to get a decent number of people for a greetings video to be sent to Southampton for Sarah’s induction. It was as if only once she had gone that people were ready to do that. There being only one week between that meant I suspect a number of people who would have liked to did not get to make a recording because they were away that week. Organising it was very simple really, there were obvious opening and closing shots and then I tried to arrange things so that things were well mixed up between, so mix of greeting lengths, persons and styles. I also only had to edit one video more than cutting off my prompt at the start, and that was for a double reasons: it was too long and it was too personal. Anyway thanks to NCH Videopad  I was able to combine them that afternoon and send them off to various people I knew were involved in the arranging of the induction.

The following Sunday was the date Sarah was inducted to her new charge at Southampton. It was also the first thesis weekend I got in five weeks so I missed out both on going to Southampton and on the video locally. However as the Video link was to the Jesus Centre just across the road from my flat when I looked out at 3:30 pm the carpark opposite was full! Today I heard that they had around twenty to see. The link was not as good as it could have been.

Today it was quiet, with a small congregation. We will see what the weeks ahead bring. At present our Management Team have lots of enthusiasm, in some ways I am happy for them to have their head as long as they do not expect me at present to do anything really substantial. We will see what the weeks ahead bring.

The next thing I will turn to is work. This has been busy, even more so than usual as I  have been teaching a course on Statistics. I do not usually even claim to teach statistics.I advise but I leave the teaching to others. It also involves me in learning a new statistics package. Now that is something I do do, but this time the package is R. I know on the surface I should get on with it. I do like programmy packages and there is part of me that still hankers for the interface of GLIM. Heck I was so fluent in Glim that I basically did monte-carlo tests in it at one stage. That is so far out on the left hand side that most people just would not think to do it. Then give me Genstat and I will manage to get it to dance actually I can get SPSS to but that is due to familiarity. R as I said should suit me. However the more I investigate the more cautious I am coming. The pressures on Open Source packages have sometimes led to them implementing non- open source options.  Anyway the first session I was just not communicating and was trying to think why. The second session I got a lot further with.

I am also starting to work out how I will work with the chaplaincy at the University. There is a difference between before Sarah and now both in the structure of the chaplaincy and also in how I am appointed. I am not keeping a seat warm for someone else this time. There is no sign that there will be someone else, so it is in part up to me to try and sort out how things happen. Otherwise I have at least one paper where I need to sit down and sort out what happened. Hopefully I will get chance to do that in the second half of this week after I have done the third session of the teaching.

Then there is thesis. I am working at the rate I expected but there is more redrafting than ideally I would like. My supervisor was slightly surprised with the time I quoted between going from draft unproof-read to full proofread  draft but then I gave him what I was basing my estimate on. He then realised that simply because I am so much more used to getting my pieces proof-read thank you James and Ruth, that I may actually have a time advantage. This reminds me that at some stage I have got to look up the details of how the files need presenting for submission. I have quite deliberately also not done much styling within Word, as I know that when I come to do the final submission I will need to style according to the way the University of Birmingham wants it. Now this is where my computer literacy comes in. I am used to applying styles to the whole document and therefore I tend to first write the document and only bother about layout at the end. Anyway I now have a possible names for my examiners. I think I am going to see if I can celebrate my Birthday by submitting on it.

After Sarah's Leaving Do

First of all I went to a conference on “Opening the Gates to Heaven” which was held in Northampton at a Youth Conference centre on a business park. Northampton is an odd place to get to by train. My checking of tickets suggested that it would cost me over £120 to pay for a six hour journey. They insisted on either sending me by a whole host of local services or going into Birmingham and out. I do realise now that it might have been possible to book advance fare to London and then get another train out. However given that it is 3 hour drive at my speed (I know other people could have done it in just over two) and that car hire was around £40 there really was no competition even with petrol on top (another £30) the hire was quicker and cheaper. There should be a map of Britain where the towns are spaced according to the rail fares charged between them. It would be very interesting to see. The actual conference was a fairly URC affair. It was organised by an interested group based at one church in London with some support from the Faith and Order group. It was open to all, although I think I was the only person who was not either formally trained or in training to be a leader of worship (thus a mix of ministers and authorised lay preachers).

The conference had two main speaker and about five people giving short talks. Actually Yorkshire was one of the better represented Synods but we did seem to be mainly lay preachers. Really as most of our lay preachers are elders we should change the name.  The problem I have is that worship leaders seem to be worrying about what they are saying, and not by what people are hearing. The fact is that what worship leaders “say” and what people “hear” are not identical because while a worship leader may be clear in their own minds of their intentions, the hearer starts out with a different set of experiences which means they may understand what you are saying in a different way. There is a cartoon I recall of a short cleric who had gone into the a high pulpit with a sermon on a long piece of paper. All the congregation could see therefore was the top of his head and the scroll of his notes flopping down the outside of the pulpit. His opening words were “Today I would like to talk to you about communication...”. If you add to that the Reformed bias that says “Get your theology right and your worship will follow”, then I am not sure you will go anywhere. The trouble is my thesis is persuading me there is quite a bit of truth in "Lex Orandi, Lex Credendi, Lex Vivendi"or that as we pray, so we believe and so live (which is a rough translation). However if that is the case then you need to find how people experience prayer.

Thesis is on the whole going well although maybe not as quick as I would like. I have two chapters in second draft and therefore they have gone to my proof readers. I have another chapter which I hope is in second draft after my supervisor asked me to revise it and another that I have just started redrafting but I think I know where I am going with it. The big problem is getting the time slots required to do redrafting. I need at least a day to get any work done and better still if I can get most of two or three consecutive days to work on it. Whereas when I was doing first draft I could spend short spell because I was writing small pieces. Second draft is far more about rearranging the pieces so as to create something that is more structured and makes an interesting argument rather than pure description. I write detailed description first and while I am doing so the theory is forming in my mind, so I then need to go back and do some pretty major restructuring. Once accepted into second draft however there is little point in major restructuring. I have to do some on one of the chapters but the other I would prefer to leave alone.

At work I seem to have taken on quite a bit of teaching. I have done two sessions on NVivo for Linguists. These are mainly masters and I suspect doctoral students who are doing their research training year.  I am having problems in keeping up with the training needs of the University on this topic. Then I am also teaching with MASH  a course for Linguistics (yes same department but a different area) on using statistics. The basic idea is to give them enough skills to not feel daunted by the statistics in papers. Linguistics as a subject is rather peopled by individuals who were glad to get rid of maths at GCSE. The fact that they find themselves now in a subject that is increasingly using statistics and complex statistics at that is frightening for them. The big thing from my perspective is that I am having to learn R as that is what most linguists use. This is not the easiest of statistical packages to use. However unlike medics the Linguists seem to think that using a package that is capable is more essential than having one that is easy.

The weekend before last I went over to see my parents. This was simply an over one evening and back the next but if I did not do that I realised I would not be getting until I submitted my thesis. Therefore it was a matter of taking the time out. Hopefully my parents will be over next month. We went for a walk in Lyme Park, hoping to see hares but the weather was so bitterly cold that after all of a hundred yards we returned to the car and went in search of a cafe for a warm drink. Dad is beginning to work through the stuff that needs doing as if anything happened to him, then Mum would struggle by herself. Together however they work very much as a team, with Dad remembering what needs doing and quite often Mum doing it. However Dad has never been the most proactive at contacting people and sometimes being almost as slow as reluctant as his father who would rather do things for himself than ask help off anyone. Needless to say my father and grandfather would do their best to help anyone who came to them if they could.

Last weekend it was the annual church meeting. In that I am due to finish my thesis in less than six months, I felt that it was probably the right time for me to stand again as an active elder. I have also agreed to be table elder 1 and that is difficult if you are not an active elder. As you do an apprenticeship as table elder 2 for the year before being table elder 1, this was agreed over a year ago. However I did have to specify that I needed re-election. I was last elected I think in 2000 (it may have been 1999). It must have been a late Easter that year as I was ordained on Easter day. David Hill asked afterwards if I had ever been non-serving. He had presumed that I needed to resign, but as I had served for over six years (on a five year term of office) I did not really see how I could resign. Sarah asked me whether I would leave for the vote and I said “Yes, I’d prefer to” which must of surprised her but being out of the room while the whole thing was going on seemed much preferable to being in even though I was pretty confident that there would not be any problems. Needless to say I was voted on.

Writers group is going well at present, indeed we have twelve members and next term we are probably going to be playing hot chairs to get a seat as there are at least thirteen people who want to come. Actually I suspect we could run with fourteen and with people who are willing to miss a turn or who do not turn up we would manage just fine. From my poetry perspective, I need to find a way to tell which of my poems are good and which are not up to scratch. I can tell when a poem is unfinished but the qualities that differentiate a good from an adequate poem feel totally beyond me. I am realising however that I am developing a second style of poem, my usual poem tries to capture one moment, one incident succinctly. There is thus a sparseness about them. I have written some which are just four lines long. The fresh style is a narrative, that is there is more story to it and the feeling as if something happens or we move somewhere. They are thus longer pieces. I suspect it was the development of these that made one of the group comment on the lyricism of my recent work in the autumn. The other thing is my poems have been darker and bleaker this term. It is as if  that with Margaret (another member who is very good a writing Gothic pieces) being off, I have felt the space to explore some of the darker atmosphere.

Slowly slowly the wheels are turning to having me back on the Chaplaincy at the University as a religious advisor. The biggest problem I am having as always with this role is getting synod to think actually what it is doing. Synod has now appointed me and written to me to say so and to the chaplaincy. That is good but as far as I can tell they have appointed me to act as contact person without working out how I am to keep them in the loop or they me in the loop. I might be happier with the situation if district had not been so ready to treat me as irrelevant last time.

Finally I come to today. I have not talked about the weather but we have had our share of cold and snow. In particular we had snow on Friday and Saturday here. On Friday it fell in the morning but had largely melted by the evening but at night it started snowing again. That snow continued for the better part of the day and though cleared in late afternoon it was well below freezing so not melting. The result was even down here we had two to four inches of snow. Jean and James were reporting 6 feet in their back garden. The result was that yesterday they were making the decision on whether to continue with today’s service and celebration. Actually I think the service would have happened regardless but maybe not the celebration. The numbers that turned up were good. I think in the region of a hundred, especially if you include the clerics who turned up after the service. To my knowledge there were three or maybe four and yes they were all clerics. The result was that the hall was packed for the meal. People seemed to be making a real effort to come including at least one couple from Chesterfield. James ended up doing a lot of running around due to the snow. Jean was at one time worried because he had dropped her then gone out to collect Derek and Sarah. It became apparent only when he got back that he had also realised that John might need a lift and David did not feel that he could cross the carpark to his flat. The snow may have been a bit of a blessing as the hall was full, as was the garden room and we were close on filling the committee room. Any more and we really should have been taking the meal through to the church. Sarah used her ability in writing to give more of the story of  Sarai a women around the time of Jesus who connects with him at various times in his life.On the whole it worked as well as any Palm/Passion service does. A bit of a pity the time in the church while the meal was prepared was taken up with an organ recital. Douglas was good but I suspect quite a few people would have appreciated the extra time to talk to Sarah and with other people.